'I Wanted To Be A Mother' a photographic practice on the reflection of family’s influence to my self portrait: I was born and raised in a conservative Chinese family that had full control of her early life with a series of “rules” I had to follow. Many things I did seemed unpleasant to my family as if I broke those rules. This life style made me feel a sense of cold violence and the lack of love. When I grew up, I realized that many family rules and values were naturally applied on my daily practices, although I didn’t agree with many of them. Therefore, I used the forms and colors of objects I photographed to metaphor the familial pressure added on me. I also revealed the desire of freeing myself from the family rules in my work.